2 Corinthians 12:9-10
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
May today I acknowledge that my pain will pinpoint the places where I am weak. It is through my pain that I have learned so much, as if you are loosening my clutch on comfort,
It has been my willingness to avoid this agent of purity that has had me shuffling in place and at times stifled in obscurity, If a woman looking to enhance her beauty has so much confidence in the resilience of her body, Am I not capable of the same healing property’s?
O’ Lord I know that my emotional pain can be tormenting, Who wants to admit all is not well, venting and trying to transcend our own personal hells. This is sometimes my own jail; a personal sentence
Today I choose against walking around behind a veil, I choose to see others and refuse to dramatize MY suffering, after all it is that that ties me to nothing; The nothing of my being
I am speaking of the spirit and seeing the lyric give meaning, apart from the song that is the universe it lacks purpose. When understood as part of whole I step up and am molded for service.
Give me strength to exercise obedience! Keep pinpointing my lack so that I know where to allow your transforming spirit to flow, I know of you but I don’t know. I have come to a place where my natural talent has been exhausted. Either I am water conforming or I must endure the fire that is your attempt to transform me.
Grant me the wisdom so that it is not always the latter, As I have come to know it will forever be YOUR will.
My Worldwide Family,
One of my favorite scenes is in the movie The Matrix. It is the scene where they are riding in one of the greatest classics cars ever, which is the lincoln continental, in my humble opinion. Anyhow, they are prepping NEO for a visit with Morpheus and he opens the suicide doors in attempt to leave, and as we later understand, avoid his destiny. This is when he is stopped by Trinity and she tells him that he had been down that road before. Neo, when confronted with this decides to get back in the car and go along for the ride. I will skip the part where they extract the bug out of his stomach.
The point I am making is that we all come to this place. The Lord knows I have over and over again. There has been so many points in my life where my intelligence has not been sufficient. I have run smack into walls so many times in my efforts to be a professional, father, husband and so many other things that I would no longer like to voluntarily be a crash dummy. I of course have read many books, seen many movies, and heard many speeches in my time. The development of my own inner life has allowed me to effectively grow into these roles.
I admittedly said my vows and walked down the aisle with my wife without fully knowing what I was getting into. I have also said and conveyed the appropriate messages as a young man, wondering whether or not I could live up to them and often times I didn’t. Intellectually I understood the value of these roles, but I admittedly had few examples and no experience. This would also apply to my life as a Christian. I had been to church and enjoyed to music, but that is not same as saying that I had given my life to Christ.
My greatest sufferings has been my fierce attachments and reluctance to be a progressive vehicle. While projecting the outward appearance of things that I had stepped into without respect of the time it takes to properly develop with God as the proper counsel, I created an unnecessary enemy because the two lives that I was juggling were in conflict.
See, over the years we form bonds and relationships that we would like to last forever. There are also many things that come with the territory like codes and subtle understandings that are respective to the relationship. Some of us stubbornly attempt to juggle these many things that often cause vicious wounds to our integrity. Most of us are not truly bad people, just conflicted. To me it has been a lesser form of death to sever some of these attachments.
I have witnessed the man with multiple children that is dead set on the dream of fame he had as a child, and ignores his children’s dreams. There is the relationships that started out as a quest that brings life into this world. Most men are unprepared for most things, even those that understand the value of a detailed plan.
I am telling you that it would be wise to put your many selves on one end of the seesaw and allow them to catapult the true person you are in the spirit to the top. They are heavy and they have a purpose. You have heard that we are just learning the things that we innately know. Either we honor these inevitable transitions or they are going to force themselves upon us. Many men and women can tell you that this is a painful ordeal. To do this it requires brutal honesty and a commitment. It is human nature to want to have something to lean on in case it does not work. However, this is a refusal to honor the natural flow of things. Have faith that you are more than a conqueror.
I am Earnest Graham and I know that my prior selves cannot subdue me. I am capable of more than a single victory, but through my trials my strength will be multiplied. This my affirmation for today.
Thank you and God Bless!